DAY 1

I have not written in just about a year! Well, that is proof that I rarely follow thru with anything. Bummer, I know.At least for me it is.
I have decided to start back blogging again, only this time it is purely for me. An open journal for myself, AND the whole world should they chose. Most importantly for ME!I am going to dedicate time EVERY single day to blog. Yup, for a whole 365 days I will write to myself basically about ME.
No better time than now.

Dear Me,

Today, I thought a lot about where my life is going. I am surrounded by friends that are going to finish school, have finished or are starting back up again. I hate that survival so to speak, in this world, is directed towards what degree you have. Or IF you have a degree. Lately, I have been realizing that I am going nowhere fast. I like my job don't get me wrong. The pay could be better, but considering the economy things are good. However, could I see myself there forever? Nope. I know this for certain. What I am unsure of is what I do see myself doing. What career? What am I good at? What could I enjoy choosing as a career path? Where are these answers?????

Recently, a friend of mine lost her father. It was horribly sad to watch the family go thru such a loss but also very revealing. I wanted to document their experience. It sounds morbid, but really just to experience and be a part of pure human emotion at one of its most vulnerable times. My heart ached for them. I cried at times just looking at him in pain, or at his wife trying to stay strong. I am an extremely emotional and sensitive person. It was more sad to me to see people coming together at a time like that. Sad because, why should it take a funeral to bring families, friends, co-workers, or even acquaintances TOGETHER. Are we all not part of the same Rat Race? If only a fraction of humanity would show the type of compassion you see at a funeral, then I believe the World would truly be a better place.
This got me thinking. A little too intensely on how I would leave this world and embark on the next. Actually, I gave myself anxiety thinking about it. A person can touch someones life by a single word. We leave imprints on people we meet. Some positive and some negative. So, when I leave this world who will unite to share their compassion? Death is a topic I could write about in babble forever.
This experience made me realize that one of my best friends lost her grandfather and I barely consoled her. I have another good friend who lost her father a few years back, and I wasn't there for her like I think now I should have been.I lost my grandmother about 4 years ago and I don't think I ever really dealt with that grief. For some reason, this friends loss impacted me. Strange or just human? I mean I can't always be who i want to be all the time, right?

I recently watched a recorded episode of SNL. For me this one skit made my night when I watched it. I can't get this out of my head!!!!! By now it is old, but I still find it so amusing. It was the 1920's party with Kristen Wiig - Don't make me Sing. This was so funny! My fiance called me at work today and played the skit in the background. I was laughing so hard I cried. So I must give out a big thanks to SNL. Again, my day was made because of this skit.

I have been doing my Wii Active workouts again.Hopefully, I can stick to this too!

Today, at work I learned from a co-worker how pigs do the dirty!!! Yup. Look it up...Not so pretty!

I am reading two books now. One is series I called Thirst. The other is book 7 of the House of Night series. Both are Vampire fiction books. what can I say I love the teen dramas.Even on television I watch Vampire diaries, Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill,& Life Unexpected.I do watch House, and Bones as well, though.

Time to sign out,

Love ME