BLOGGER VIRGIN

I am a Blogger Virgin. Well at least until now. Please forgive my naive, tattering of thoughts. I will display these thoughts openly on the keyboard for anyone who may be the slightest bit elevated into reading what I may have to say.

For now I guess I will start with my mini mid-life crisis so to speak. I am a young woman in her early twenties. I will soon be a striking old age of 25. I can hardly believe that all of this time has passed me by. I should relatively be vibrant, happy, and excited about turning 25. However, I feel most days as though I have no frickin' clue as to where my life is going.

I have recently asked my mother, "Why did you never tell me that growing up was this hard? That life was this hard?" She came back with, "I did honey." Well, I guess that I can give that to her because when I sit and think about what an obnoxious, and rebellious teenager I was growing up, I can remember all of those times that she really was trying to help me. I just never wanted to hear it, I suppose. I thought that I knew all there was to know about who I was and where I was going. Let me just state. I had no clue!!!!! Life is always larger than you think. There are things you learn along the way that you would have never imagined you would learn. Most of which quite honestly in my opinion, can not be taught in any scholar school around. I am not knocking down an education. I am only stating that with every second of your life, if you are open minded, you will learn and grow immensely. Inward, outward, up , & down, emotionally, physically, and mentally. All of this emotional & physical tug of war will happen with or without the help of a guided instructor.

I have so many aspirations and dreams in life, but I feel as though my time is ticking by at a rapid lightning speed. Everyone I know would say that I am still young, I have my whole life ahead of me. See, this is where I disagree. My thought process does not think that same way. I feel that no one single person is guaranteed tomorrow. Writers, Scholars, and educators to the world have been telling us all this for years. Yet, we still as human beings have this natural tenacity to take virtually everything for granted. I have struggled with these thoughts for most of my early twenties. I believe that you have to make the life that you want for yourself. This is why I am struggling so. I have so much that I want to do, but I allow fear of failure to keep me from accomplishing anything.

This is why I feel as though turning 25 is a mid-life crisis waiting to happen!